Let me start by saying this is one of the hardest things I have ever written, for two reasons. First, this letter means that I am closing a chapter to something that has meant the world to me. Secondly, there truly are no words that do justice to what Holly Conklin and Angel Intervention Services has done for my life. So, I’ll try my best.
When I walked through those doors, I was a shell of a girl, barefoot and in a methamphetamine induced psychosis. That isn’t a metaphor either, I was out of my mind psychotic and I had no shoes on. I couldn’t even speak on my own behalf at this point and my aunt had to do it for me. I weighed 98 lbs. and had lost everything, including my will to live. I was constantly terrified because the voices never stopped. The second I walked through the doors I felt at peace. In fact, the only thing I could say, out loud, was “This is what I have been looking for”.
I would be the first one here in the morning and the last one to leave most days. And I did this for months because all I knew is that I didn’t want to use when I was here. I would sit in groups and listen to Holly talk and for the first time what I was hearing make sense. I began to heal, little by little. I was laughing again and before I knew it, I was truly in love. Not with any man but with myself. I learned to take the wins in life and that there truly are no losses, just lessons. I walked into Angel Intervention Services fearful and broken and today I graduate fearless and whole.
Angel Intervention Services is so much more than just a recovery program. Angel Intervention is a life program. I didn’t just learn how to be clean. I learned how to be a mother, how to love myself but most importantly how to trust myself. If everyone could have a Holly Conklin in their life, the world would truly be a better place.